Summer is here with a bang. So much melting. We finally had the swamp cooler turned on, and the dogs are in heaven.
It’s hard to get the energy or motivation to do much of anything when it’s 100F outside, so it’s lovely to be able to help others without leaving the house. I’ve done quite a few sessions the past couple weeks, for various ailments, and the feedback has been wonderful. I like to send light to my Mom and tell her after the fact (she enjoys the surprise), and her feedback is always something like, “I just noticed I was able to walk easier!” or yesterdays, “I carried 3 water bottles into the living room instead of one!” which has been all she’s been capable since her health scare.
Last night there was a fire in the canyon, and it was really windy, so it was pretty scary for everyone near there for most of the night. There’s a video here, if you’re interested.
OH! I wanted to thank everyone who started following me here on the website instead of via social media. I left a note on Instagram, and today I’m going to “delete” the account. Twitter is still up, but I don’t use it for this – it’s pretty much a rage retweeting account these days. There’s so much to be upset about, and retweeting let’s me let go of the rage quicker. It’s weird, but it works for me. 🙂
I hope everyone is safe and cool, and those you love are the same!
And I’m sitting in bed. Yesterday I was running an errand, and out of the blue my hips and legs decided they were done with the endeavor. I barely made it to the car, and getting in and out of it was extremely difficult. Fibromyalgia is an umbrella term for a cornucopia of symptoms, and I’m not sure if this is part of it, or it’s something completely new and different. Fun. Not.
I really want to go outside and sit in the sun, especially since the air is ok today. The fires to the north of us are horrible, and I can’t even imagine trying to breathe in the smoke. It’s particularly disturbing because spring in New Mexico basically means ‘windy’, and with everything so dry, the fires have a lot to feed on. I hope they can get them under control, but it’s not looking good.
I haven’t been sending much light since I decided to stop offering to help for free, and this does not make me happy at all. Every time I tweet that it “fills me with joy” to help others, I’m not just saying that; it really does. It’s like the light/energy flowing through me also gives me a boost, too…and I miss it. A lot.
I’m still certain that my retainer plan is one hell of an amazing deal, but I haven’t forgotten that single sessions are important, too. I just want to help; that’s really what it comes down to.
I think I may see if I can make it to the porch and read for a while. Be safe out there, everyone…and please, wear your masks. You may not think it’s important for you, but it is for the vulnerable around you. We depend on each other, so let’s be kind and take care of others by being smart ourselves, ok?
When I was in high school eons ago, I took French for one year, and our teacher taught us about ‘april fish’. The phrase has stuck with my friend Elendae and I ever since.
It’s a gorgeous spring day; the breeze is blowing, the door is open, beautiful clouds in the sky…and yet, I’m freezing. If I had enough energy to take a shower, I’d go sit in the sun and warm up, but I don’t. So I’m in a hoodie, under a blanket, typing away at my beloved laptop, instead of enjoying the weather. It’s so quiet, and I feed on that. Too much noise and loudness really gets to me. He’s asleep because his back is really hurting today, I’ve been watching -on my usual ‘only audible to me’ super-low volume – Greta Thunberg: A Year to Change the World, which is giving me a ton of anxiety (especially when they say we’ll hit our ‘carbon budget‘ by 2030) but needs to be watched. We must face what’s going on and prepare in whatever ways we can, because it’s coming. Humanity has pushed until there’s no turning back unless seriously drastic measures are taken, and we all know those in the money don’t want that to happen.
Anyway. Enough stress.
I did 3 sessions this morning, and one thing I’m sometimes asked is “can you tell what’s wrong?”. The answer is no. I can only feel the flow — I say ‘flow’, but I don’t even know if that’s the right way to describe it. I don’t feel movement, like a flow of a river, it’s more, I don’t know…pressure? Sometimes it’s barely there, which can be a sign that the client isn’t seriously sick or in a lot of pain; sometimes it’s so intense I feel the pressure for a while after the session is over. That can be blocked chakras, intense pain or illness…I just never know. On one hand I wish I had the ability to know, but on the other I think that would be a lot of pressure on me, and if what I ‘knew’ was wrong, I would feel horrible for having misinformed someone, ya know?
The most I do, as today, is ask if the receiver is feeling ok,, that the ‘flow’ was more intense than expected (or that it had been previously), and many times the answer is surprise that I could tell something had changed, or that there is more going on than we suspected. Once I did a session for someone (I think I’ll start using ‘for’ instead of ‘on’ because none of the sessions are in-person and haven’t been for a long time) and it felt like popcorn was popping in my palms! It was the most bizarre feeling, and it’s never happened again. I did have a session not long ago where it felt more like fireworks going off – little ones, not the boomers, but still. For some reason I quit writing down how the sessions feel to me, so I don’t remember what this particular sending was for.
Back to the weather. The clouds are coming in darker. Maybe it will rain again. There are a few unexpected dandelions in the yard, but no other flowers. I’d love to plant some for the bees, but it’s one of those ‘paper or plastic’ questions: do I use water to grow plants in the middle of aridification of the southwest, or do I save the bees without which we’ll all die anyway? Six of one, half a dozen of the other. It’s a dilemma.
Enough for now, sparkling water is calling to me. Happy April, everyone!
It’s cold and rainy, though every now and again the sun tries to peek through the clouds. I’m on the couch, two blankets, and a background focus YouTube channel is quietly playing in my earbuds. It would be lovely except for the pain, so much pain for both of us today. His spinal stenosis and my fibromyalgia. We can barely walk, even with aids. I found this pain chart a while ago that digs deeper than the usual ‘on a scale of 1-10’, and I’m on about 8.5 and he’s a solid 10. He hovers between 8-10 on a daily basis, but “weather” always intensifies it.
My mom found this Fibro/CFS test, and I’m a yep for both. No surprise. Fibro is weird, though, because everyone’s symptoms are different and to a differing degree; pain is the common denominator, though. One thing, the CFS has become quite the issue with me since last July, and while there are days that I can function almost ‘normally’, most days I’m simply fried from waking to bedtime. It sucks.
Reading the ‘quiet blogs’, as I call them, sort of kicked in the blog more idea, even though it’s not always related to energy healing. Then name is This Healing Hobbit’s Life, not This Healing Hobbit’s Work, and it’s my blog, so I can pretty much do what I want, correct? I thought so.
I do have another session a couple hours, and maybe another one to sneak in before then. I also send light to him instead of doing hands-on because it seems to help his pain more if I do it that way; hands-on puts him to sleep.
The sun is trying so very hard to shine through the clouds, but I don’t think it’s going to succeed. It’s so beautiful outside, and this music is lovely. I think I’ll try to get up and make some tea. Wish me luck!