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Midnight Musings

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It’s actually 4:45 a.m., but who’s counting? Can’t sleep, too much on my mind. The other day I started doing Morning Pages (which are actually ‘whenever my brain wants to explode and I need it to shut the hell up’ pages), and when I woke up at 3 this morning I thought what a perfect time for people to do them. Wake up and can’t get back to sleep because your brain went into overdrive? Write. Don’t think about what you’re writing, just write. No punctuation, correct grammar, complete sentences…just get it all out so you can go back to sleep. Mine are so messy I can’t even read them, but that’s part of the pages; they aren’t supposed to be looked at ever again; it’s a brain dump, not a journal or diary. I planned to shred them as I went because there’s a lot going on in my head that no one else need ever know about, but there’s no point.

I was just reading Twitter, and it was noted that there’s been a huge drop in bots and fake American feeds since Russia blocked the app. Could be the best thing ever for upcoming elections here. Someone else mentioned that they were “so tired of living in ‘interesting times'”…amen to that.

Does anyone else have a cat who meows and meows to be pet, but stays just out of reach? What the heck is up with that??

There’s really no point to this post besides I had a lot more going on in my head til I pulled out the laptop, and then ‘poof!’, it all disappeared. I did want to blog more, so I’ll just consider this part of that plan. 😂

I have a sick kitty to send light to. That will settle me enough so I can go back to sleep.

Stay safe.

With hope and love,

Pip 🌻✨


A tremor crash? What’s that?

I have had essential tremor for, oh wow, just shy of 30 years. It was after my divorce, two moves across country, and a lot of stress, which can trigger tremors that you didn’t even know you have. Essential tremor tends to run in families, and no one I was aware of had it (my son does now). I was playing pool with friends and someone commented on my shaky hands, which I hadn’t even noticed. Did some library research and came across ET.

During stressful times it gets really bad, interfering with just about everything because my hands are shaking so bad that I can’t even hold a glass of water.

Food can set them off, though I’ve not really been able to nail down what foods in particular because one day I’ll be fine eating something and a few days later the same exact food has a completely different effect. It’s bewildering.

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The last two years they’ve calmed to manageable (except for the occasional food disruption), mainly because my overall stress calmed. I’ve been home, without a schedule or any expectations beyond getting through the pandemic. But this year things have been more stressful as people get “back to normal”, and as a result, my tremors are acting up again.

Years ago I noticed that there are times when they are so bad that my entire body feels like it’s buzzing, and when the tremors finally calm down, I’m exhausted. Fried. A wet noodle. And if I’m lucky, I’m able to go to bed, sleep, and recuperate. That’s what I call a tremor crash.

And now there’s a new addition to the problem; inhalers. I have asthma and inhalers intensify the tremors (nebulizers are insane! I shake out of control for 4 hours). So I’ll wake up, use the inhaler, the tremors kick in, and then I’ll eat. Some days all is well, the tremors chill, and I’m good to go.

Today, today…wow. it was bad. The tremors, the inhaler, the food I ate; I was on super-buzz. We had to run errands, I was coughing a lot from the asthma, had to use the rescue inhaler, and things got really bad. I was shaking so much that I was having difficulty breathing (more than normal), which isn’t something that’s happened before. I made it to the bedroom when we got home and fell asleep for a few hours. I’m still feeling weak and shaky, but I can breathe ok.

All this did, besides freaking me out a lot, was intensify my determination to work from home, to actually make a living from, if need be, my bed. I cannot have something like this happen at a job, right? You may have noticed some changes on the website, such as returning to This Healing Hobbit’s Life. I jump in without thinking things through, and I suddenly realized that I simply needed to make a few changes and not mess with whatever internet following I have. Sometimes it just takes me a while to get the point. lol

Check out the Essential Tremor website (March is National Essential Tremor Awareness Month, too); you’d be surprised how many people have it and don’t even know it.

And as always, I hope to be of service for you and/or your pets!

With hope and love,

Pip 🌻✨

©Pip Miller – February 2022

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What a day

Lunar New Year, aka Chinese New Year, a dark moon, Brigid’s day, and in the days when the climate was different, the first day of spring in the Celtic world (which fits where I live here in the southwest). That’s a lot going on!

We’re supposed to get what will pretty much be the first snow in town, and the change in the weather has my fibromyalgia on the ‘Do not move” setting. I’m in bed, under lots of covers, writing this on my new laptop (thanks again, Mom…and my sister for helping her choose it!), looking out the window at the grey day and the leafless tree branches starting to move in the wind.

I did forget to make hot chocolate, though. *sigh*

Last night and this morning I sent light to a dog in New Brunswick who – out of the blue – was in a lot of pain and couldn’t move well. He felt better last night, and this morning’s session was to kick what was left of it out the door. My dear friend Johanne DM’d these messages (used with her permission):

From January 31, 2022

And from this morning:

February 1, 2022

Helping animals, which I’ve been doing more of, is such a wonderful experience. I can tell when a critter is a bit hesitant to accept, sort of a ‘um, what’s going on??’ feeling in the flow, and then, it never, ever fails, after a few minutes, they whole-heartedly lean into it and let the light do its work. And then there are those who, from the first second, are all, ‘yep, bring it!!’ and the flow reacts accordingly.

It always seems to bring them a sense of calm, as well as healing. Some will fall asleep, some just chill…but they all seem to love it.

And this makes my heart happy.

With love and hope,

Pip 🌻✨

PS: if you or your critter is in need of a shift in their energy, I offer 30-minute sessions and a package deal of 3 sessions. I’d love to help!!

PPS: Just wanted to let you know that Johanne is a fabulous card reader…and painter! Check her out!

©Pip Miller – February 2022